QUOTE (X-Ray-Spex @ Jun 25 2008, 11:32 AM)

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I guess 50 is some kind of milestone or something. I'm not sure why I feel the way I do.
Perhaps it's just me, but for so many years it was THE age that represented inappropriate age differences between a cute young girl and a much older man. This is as in, "My God, he must be 50." And, as if everyone didn't already have a clue where my head is often at (besides THERE) it's entering the age bracket where one actually can find themselves caught leering after a young girl who actually COULD be the age of a grandchild. A leering 45 year old is in a mid-life crisis and denial - sad, really. A leering 50+ is a "dirty old man" and repugnant, unless, of course, they are fantastically wealthy. I am not.
The "senior discounts" loom, the AARP solicitations have already been coming thick and fast. It's when the health insurance companies start covering colonoscopies without question because they become part of the routine, and you have about half an hour before the networks, major music labels and ALMOST every advertiser in the country officially doesn't give a shit WHAT you think or prefer, unless they're selling "Ensure." Many of the products made for you have the term "Silver" somewhere in the labeling, and it's YOUR Oldsmobile that they're no longer making. I don't know about your house, but I can't experience a bout of heartburn without my wife looking at me sideways - trying not to be obvious, checking to see if I'm grasping my left arm or looking a little clammy.
By 50 you've had at least a couple of friends and acquaintances die at something close to your age, and of something other than a horrible accident or an obscure, rapidly-developing disease. People who were superstars of your youth die, and you realize very few who are younger than you have any clue who they're talking about.
You're still on the roller coaster ride, but you can definitely see the covered area where you'll be compelled to disembark not too far ahead, and where others are hopping aboard with no clue how fast the ride goes.
I keep waiting for the calm sense of acceptance that 70 year olds I know say they enjoy to kick in, because right now I'm just sort of vaguely pissed off.
But maybe all that's just me.